Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I don't feel any better now than I did last time I wrote in here.   I am not pregnant this time though.  I haven't felt good since my daughter was born, and she will be two years old in a few days.   I have pretty much given up.  I don't know what to do.   I haven't even bothered trying to tweek my meds in so long, because I just get hyper, but never better.  
Right now I am on 100mcg synthroid, 60mg Armour and 20mg HC.   Now my doctor thinks I have Candida, which I agree with, because I don't eat like I should.   So, all the meds in the world won't help than unless I can rid of the yeast.  I did go on an antifungal drug (forgot the name) and I tried the candida diet (no sugar,  including fruit, no grains, no yeast, no peanuts, no dairy.... so pretty much meat and veggies.)  I don't dissagree that it is a very healthy diet, but it is about impossible to do, especially the no fruit part.   Also, it takes a lot of energy to make everything from scratch, and I don't have energy. 

I have recently realized that everday I am waiting for tomorrow, hoping to feel normal again.  So for the last ten years, I have just been "waiting until".   Of course, life is not easy like this, but it is what I have, so I might as well just accept it and try to get on with life.  It doesn't mean that I won't try getting my candida under control, or that I will never again try to tweek my meds, but right now I am almost as sick of trying to get well as I am of being sick.  *sigh*